As I shared in my public blog, I'm finally starting to feel connected to the wedding and all the plans. The fact that we're now talking on the phone goes a long way toward helping...even if it makes me miss you that much more when we have to say goodbye. Just last night, I watched a favorite movie, but I couldn't help but wish you were here, so we could cuddle on the couch and watch it together. No, it isn't a favorite of yours, but we could've enjoyed it anyway just being near one another.
Loved hearing your voice on Easter Sunday. It made an otherwise quiet afternoon much better. Of course, bridging the phone gap now makes our IM conversations a bit less effective, but it's still a connection.
It's only 5 weeks until we see each other again. Days aren't so bad as I have work and errands and other responsibilities to keep me busy, but the evenings are the hardest. That's when I'm starting to shut down from the day and when I find my desire for you the strongest. I sit at my desk and can do nothing but stare at the computer screen or get up and walk around the house aimlessly, finding something to do to occupy my time.
Sometimes, I chat with someone else or play a game of Solitaire, but everything pales in comparison to connecting with you. I have to keep reminding myself, only 5 more weeks. One day at a time will bring me closer to you. God will give me the strength and help keep my hopes high until then. I pray you're given the same, because I know you are struggling too.
