Ok, I've been in a bit of a funk lately. And I'm even on vacation. But, I can honestly say that this time away has given me a fresh outlook on my life and where I am. I've heard many people say that approaching 30 is a big milestone, and it's going to cause you to rethink where you've come in your life and where you're going. I brushed it off and said it wouldn't happen to me because I already know. I've already faced my "demons" and set a course for my life.
In all honesty? That's the farthest from the truth you can get.
I *don't* know where I'm headed, and I *haven't* fully faced the demons of my past. In fact, this time away has brought several of them right to the forefront. My interactions with people while here on vacation have shed some much brighter light on my circumstances.
I realize now I need to get *out* of my parents' home, even though I rent the downstairs of a split-level house. I also need to bust my butt with my writing and web design and stop playing around. It's time to get serious. Clear out and clean out and stop being lazy.
Then, there's the matter of you. Just where do you fit into this plan? When are we going to meet? Or have we already? And perhaps God is simply waiting for me to take that first step toward establishing myself before He'll reveal you to me. Whatever it is, I know I need you in my life. I've been going solo for far too long. And I want to have you sharing my life and me sharing yours. The load is much easier to bear when there's two. Not sure where you stand in your own life, and whether you've thought about this as well, but I know our paths are bound to cross and when they do...I hope you're ready to move.
I pray I don't have to wait too long.
