Ok, after that last post, I "disappeared" again because of my schedule at work, deadlines with web sites and writing requirements. Add all of that to still dealing with the bank/fraud issue and everything that snowballed from that one day.
I only just yesterday received clearance from the credit card company that the fraud investigation is complete and my credit card is finally cleared. I'm still waiting on the bank to release everything so I can close that other account. Meanwhile, I have to almost daily check it to make sure there's been no activity or that I didn't miss an automatic post somewhere.
Then, there's the DMV. When I went back 2 days later, I found out my license was suspsended in another state for an unpaid fine from THREE YEARS AGO! So, they gave me a temporary one and a # to call to settle that. Problem is I can't reach the place and had to go digging to find the *right* number. And since I'm here on the East Coast, and the suspension is in California, I'm going to have to have a friend out there help me with legal issues to get this stupid fine resolved. It's been a long drawn-out issue, where they haven't followed up with certified mail to prove they sent me anything. So, when I didn't receive the fine amount in the mail, and didn't have any way to contact them...I let it go. We'll see how much I'm *supposed* to owe.
And to make the drama "worse," that one friend from the night of the DMV visit actually got upset at me that night because of something she *thought* I said. Then, later, I get an email from her telling me how angry she was, followed by a phone call where she told me it's all MY problem and she believes there are deep-seeded issues I need to resolve. After that conversation, I left it at leaving her room to deal with whatever wrong it is that she feels I committed against her so that she isn't "fake" to me when we see each other in church or other social situations. I haven't received a phone call or email from her since it happened 2 months ago. So, my guess is she decided our friendship wasn't worth as much as she acted like it did or as much as I thought.
That hurt, but it's not the first time it's happened to me, so up go the walls again to just let it roll off my back as I continue to move forward.
Now, I'm taking it one day at a time. Work has picked up because the holiday season, so I'm getting 40 hours which is great. But, as we get closer to Christmas, I'm only reminded again that it's just another year celebrating with my family. Friends are getting married, getting pregnant, having babies...and I'm still here with just my family. They've even come to terms with my "funk" and I do the best I can to snap out of it, but it hits me from time to time and affects my mood.
I try to not let it, but it sneaks in there. Can't help but wonder if you feel the same.
